:: Tears are feelings we can't say

Wed, 03 Aug 2005 19:57:46 GMT

Sat, 21 May 2005 17:28:59 GMT

I think I've been dealing with the whole Josh thing pretty good. I think of things that make me sad because our memories but i wouldnt change them for the world. I was reading Star magazine before I went to bed last night and this was my horoscope...

SAGITTARIUS
--- The full moon signals dramatic endings and intense emotions. Let go of the past and release old resentments. When you do, you'll free yourself from an invisible burden.

Okay, how weird is that??

i miss him real bad though :(

Sun, 17 Apr 2005 15:22:55 GMT

ugh my internet is down till atleast thursday so im working on my speech/science stuff at my moms work.

Thu, 31 Mar 2005 13:35:09 GMT

Marissa types so effing loud!

Have a good day :)

Sun, 12 Dec 2004 19:18:43 GMT

Sun, 05 Dec 2004 22:00:17 GMT

I just did a really long PICTURE update and it deleted.

I'm not writing it all over again so just read Kier's, Kate's, or Marissa's journals. If you want to see pictures I think im getting them developed tomorrow so you can just wait.

Grrr i hate when you dont work livejournal.

Sat, 04 Dec 2004 03:24:51 GMT

HAPPY 1 HOUR AND 37 MINUTES TILL YOUR BIRTHDAY, LEESIE!!!!!!

i hope you like your new background :)

<3 riss

Thu, 02 Dec 2004 02:01:49 GMT

ugh im sooo flippin' mad! i lost my livestrong bracelet!!! grrrr :( i really dont know how but i checked my wrist and its gone. i looked everywhere and i cant find it and i dont even know when the last time i had it. i def. remember having it this morning so i just hope its around the house somewhere.

i have homework to do but i dont think i want to do it, therefore im not going to. someone will have it tomorrow and ill just copy because i want to and i can.

today we got our treadmill so im uber stoked. i just need to lose 15-20 pounds before im at the weight i want to be. i kinda wanted to use it tonight but my dad said hes not setting it up till after he gets home tomorrow. the thing that also sucks is it was almost $500. i just wanted a cheap one but they really couldnt find any.

i love my friends so much. if nash really got me what he said he got me for my birthday i will die. its so funny and now all the boys are thinking of crazy ideas. so far i know erica and dani wont be able to go and that is so sad :( i just cant wait to turn 16 already even though i have to wait till flippin january to get my permit.

Tue, 30 Nov 2004 02:37:32 GMT

I suck at this updating thing...i dont even think i got to update about kates party which was last saturday. me and kier got her a gift card for suncoast videos in the steamtown mall. it was a lot of fun because i got to hang out with josh all night..and she had a bon fire [or bonfire].

school happened monday, tuesday, and then half day wednesday. after school on wednesday josh, marissa, and nash came over my house and we just hung out. later kier brought us to marissas house for melanies surprise party. marissa and nash set up for the party downstairs while josh and i "watched" movies upstairs haha. a lot of people showed up and it was a good time. i watched some of elf then went outside by the fire. bobby d. hit me in the face with a ball. then josh, mike, and josh s. went upstairs to watch save the last dance. more people came up for a little but eventually it was just me and josh left till 10.

thursday was thanksgiving...nothing really interesting to write about.

friday was amazing. well first nash came over to pick up the guitar so he can fix it then i needed to go to marissas so he gave me a ride. marissas mom brought marissa, me, bobby, and blase to the TBS concert. we got up so flippin' close to the stage [not as good as last year but who is complaining]. after the concert we were waiting outside for my dad and adam from tbs was there. i asked him for a hug and he signed my new tbs shirt. it was love at first sight haha. when i got home i called nash because he told me to and i got to talk to josh for like an hour. i kinda felt bad because it was like 12:40 and he seemed tired.

saturday was pretty boring. i went shopping with my mom, aubrey, and kiersten. aubrey bought me edward scissorhands and a massager for my bday, and my mom got me new shoes. i paid for $25 of my shoes because i found $45 at the concert. i gave $20 to marissa though.

sunday josh came over at 5:30 and we watched edward scissorhands. marissa and nash showed up at 7:30 and we watched thirteen.

today marissa called me at 11:something and woke up me! grr. i wasnt feeling well at all so i didnt really wanna hang out. i cleaned and took a shower and by the time i got out nash told kiersten that him and marissa were leaving to come over. i made nash and i easy mac <3 then josh showed up. we watched love actually kinda ha then elf. i am missing so many details in the entry but oh well. one important detail i wont forget is...josh asked me out :) im soo happy.

and I will be your accident,
if you will be my ambulance.

Sat, 20 Nov 2004 18:28:58 GMT

Lets see if i can update without LJ deleting it on me...

Nothing really really exciting happened lately but here goes nothing.

Yesterday
School was uber boring but what can you expect. We had a history test so hopefully I did good on that, er' hopefully bobby did good on that ha. Josh came over after school. We layed on my bed, listened to music, and talked till 5:30ish. Then I gave him a tour of the steamtown mall becuase he's never been there before haha. After the tour we went across the street to see the spongebob movie. it was really cute, but its one of those movies that you dont really remember what happens. my mom was like 15 minutes late picking us up because she got lost...yeah i dunno. then we came back to my house for 20 minutes and marissa told me some really good news that is sooooooooo adorable! im forgetting a lot of stuff but thats okay. we brought joshua home at 10:30ish.

Today
Later on im going to the mall with marissa and kiersten to get kates present. i really have no idea what to get her but im sure ill find something awesome. after the mall to kates party we go :) umm josh said he might go if his brother goes but i kinda doubt he will.

i think that is all for now. later days

Tue, 16 Nov 2004 23:29:32 GMT

WHY DO YOU HAVE TO BE SO STUPID LIVEJOURNAL!?!

i just did a long update and you decided to not work! i hate you.

Mon, 08 Nov 2004 23:18:46 GMT

i have nothing to update about really but riss is making me!

this weekend was fun. um yeahhh.

volleyball is so time consuming which totally sucks. although, tomorrow we get out of school to go allentown. im going to first mod then skipping the first couple minutes of second and we leave at 9:30.

i plan on doing all my homework on the bus so thats kinda good. wow im talking about homework thats how bored i am. oh i just remembered how i left my glittens in my locker! damn.

today i brought cheese cake for study hall so riss and i chowed down on that. i got pissed at robby today because he doesnt know when to stop talking. at the end of the day he walked by and was like "snip snip" long story but ugh it gets me so mad. i kinda wish josh would stick up for me :( but he doesnt.

im 99% sure im gonna make this journal friends only i just need to find myself a snazzy friends only banner.

nash asked riss out! i forgot about that sooooo yayness. guess who is still single, yep me...bummer :(

okay im done; later days

Wed, 03 Nov 2004 03:04:28 GMT

what a day...

so it started out alright i guess. kier wanted to ram into the back of a bush supporters car so that was humorous. um wow i cant wait to find out who wins this election...im actually really nervous. i just hope kerry pulls through and sends the village idiot back to texas. umm what else...

the volleyball game was today and we won. i talked to riss a lot about some certain things...crying happened haha.

i came home to kiersten fighting with my aunt over how bush is a bad president which was so funny. i hate ignorant people.

i found out some good stuff today :)

i also hated people a lot today :(

i wish i kinda had someone to talk to about stuff.. but the thing is i dont even know how to express it. another thing that sucks is my group of friends hasnt had like a girls night out in forever and i feel like we are going different ways. a lot has changed since last year at this time and i dont really know if its good or bad. i just cant wait till this weekend.

i want to see Saw - let me know if you want to. :)

i guess that is it for now. GOOOOOO KERRY !!!!!!!!!!!

Mon, 01 Nov 2004 02:17:57 GMT

im so upset...this is the first year i havent gone trick or treating in f-o-r-e-v-e-r :(

i went to the haunted house yesterday with josh and nash and i went again tonight with nash so that was fun. i have stuff to update about but i have a huge spanish exam tomorrow and i studied about um zero minutes. if i find time tomorrow ill update...probably not though.

later days

Thu, 28 Oct 2004 23:50:15 GMT

It's nights like these that i remember why i flippin hate the winter. im wearing a t-shirt, sweatshirt, and shorts with sweatpants over them and im so flippin cold. i hate hate hate hate this weather and i know it is just gonna get worse as the days go on :(

well lets see monday i skipped school because i went to NY with riss to go shopping. it was a good time. i got the warmest socks from pac sun, a shirt, sunglasses, and a dot to dot book for josh haha.

school is crappy but what do you expect. today we got quizes back in spanish. i got a 68 on the one and a 78 on the other. bummer. its okay though because i have like a 96 in that class, and i think i did pretty decent on the test today. i got back my history test and i got a 100...i wonder why :)

volleyball sucked majorly today. lets see i played about 30 minutes and then coach told me to sit out because she didnt want me to hurt my foot any worse. so i sat out from like 3:40 till 5:45. i did the score and got screamed at a few times..whatever. um then marissa and chandell got taken out so we just talked while the rest of the people played.

tomorrow i really wanna go to the haunted house but i have no one to go with. marissa, mer, dani, and mel are all working at it tomorrow and erica will be at the game. i think i can probably get one of the boys to go with me if i beg. josh said he would go but i feel bad because i really dont think he wants to. umm i might go to the game afterwards though so maybe that will be fun even though really no one is going.

saturday josh is suppose to come over for the day but i still have to check and make plans with him for that. anyone can come over and watch movies with us...

the weirdest thing happened when i was driving home with kier from clarks summit. i guess i fell asleep for like 2 seconds and when i sat up i had no idea where i was. totally freaky. when i told kiersten she laughed at me but honestly it was weird.

hmm tomorrow i have study hall which is always a good thing. i get to hang out with kate for a tad in that class which equals awesomeness.

yesterday i went on a goo goo dolls spree and i downloaded every song by them i could find. they are love <3

so i guess that is all for now. please someone go to the haunted house with me :)

Sat, 23 Oct 2004 03:05:27 GMT

Lets see update time.

Well let me start with this...kate i am very very upset with you woman. how can you agree with what george bush views are. ugh! i am just lost for words and this never happens. hmmm...anyway.

so today i was suppose to hang out with josh, marissa, and nash. we were suppose to go see the grudge but about 20 minutes before i was gonna leave josh called and said he couldnt go. i was really sad but he said tomorrow he would take me so i dunno. im not getting my hopes up though. i went to the mall and got new jeans.

i guess i dont have anything really to update about. yeah night.

Yeah thats right!
John Kerry <3 <3 <3 <3 even more John Edwards <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3

You preferred Kerry's statements 100% of the time

Voting purely on the issues you should vote Kerry

Who would you vote for if you voted on the issues?

Find out now!

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Wed, 20 Oct 2004 18:00:14 GMT

Im bored and i still have 20ish minutes left before i go home sooo here goes nothing...
1. Name: Elyse Murrin
2. What do you wish your name was?: hmm i like my name
3. Where do you hope to live?: nicholson blahhhh
4. If you have kids, what will you name them ? girl(s) - sydney boys - noah, ian, quinn
5. What bad habit do you hope to break?: chewing my nails
6. Do you have wireless internet access?: yeah
7. Why or why not?: um...my parents bought it?
8. Does it make you jealous to know that soon I will?: well i already have it soooo
9. What do you like about TV?: um i dunno?
10. What upsets you about TV?: sometimes reruns :(
11. What direction do you see our culture going in?: down the drains
12. What do you think you should do about that?: absolutely nothing ?
13. Who do you hope wins the presidential election?: john kerry <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3
14. Would you rather be outside or inside?: depends on the weather
15. Do you like to mow the lawn?: um nope
16. What weird thing do you like that people make fun of you for?: eating cheese and mayo sandwiches
17. What CD are you listening to right now? nothing. im in computer class
18. Would you ever have your teeth professionally whitened?: uh huh
19. What topic would you like to hear about in an upcoming sermon?: um?
20. How long do you think you'll live?: 80s i suppose
21. Why?: because i said so
22. What makes you happy?: you
23. What makes you depressed?: when boys put me in a bad mood
24. Do you like fast food?: psh yes!
25. What restaurants do you wish we had locally, that we currently don't have?: hmm..not sure
26. Have you ever eaten in a Chic-fil-a?: no
27. What is your most recent injury or illness that forced you to visit a hospital or doctor's
office?: well today im going to get a shot because i got metal stuck in my foot
28. What would you change about yourself if you could?: not enough room...
29. What do you hope never changes about yourself?: anything makes me laugh
30. Yes or No...Is Southern Sweet Tea the best drink ever invented?: um no?
31. If you could re-live any time of your life, what would it be?: the used concert <3

Sun, 17 Oct 2004 18:14:02 GMT

This is going to be one mother lovin' long update. I have pictures from last friday...yikes.Um i already updated from when i went to joshs last friday but here are 2 pictures.
joshy :)

and nashers :)

This week was spirit week so i have acouple pictures. On monday it was pj day. We all went to the sal val in our pjs because we needed clothes for 80s day.

of course we listened to BSB on the way home because mer bought the tape. gosh!

The Riss and Mer Mer looking snazzy on 80s day.

The Riss

Dani Lou

Alexandra

i <3 robbys hair so much.

erica

neilsy

just a random picture of nash

we had an away game on friday and the bus rides get boring soooo...funny pictures happened.

later that night kiersten came in while i was sleeping and took a picture of me.

okay so homecoming was yesterday :)

i woke up at 7:30 because i was so nervous. i got my hair done and it was okay. i wasnt too crazy about it but what can you do.

kiwi and i

me, sam, and kier x 2

me, aubrey, and kier

neil and sam

marissa walked down the steps to meet nash :)

nash and marissa x 2

josh showed up and more pictures happened.

The Riss and me

me, josh, marissa, and nash

me and joshy :)

josh, me, marissa, nash

so then we went for dinner at bennigans. josh and nash got deserts for dinner because they are weirdos. we went back to the school where we saw dani and mer. more group pictures happened.

i hate this picture of me but oh well. marissa, mer, dani, me.

meridyth and stephen

joshy

erica and bobby

danielle and albert

marissa and nash

me and mer

nash and matt

mer and riss

my hair from the back

nash and josh

mel and bobby

erica, me, mel, dani, marissa

this would have been cute but chris ran away.

rissy

me and kier

kier and mer

alyssa

hate myself in this picture but mari, me, marissa

dancing happened.

i hate this picture of me too but its the only one of me and nashers

bobby showed me his dance

meridyth and amanda had the same dress

looooove this picture

dani and albert

bobby danced

joshy <3

neil and nash did this techno stuff. pretty funny

neil, nash, matt

10th grade homecoming princess stuff

alexandra won.

i was really hoping that erica would win though :(

one of my roses fell off and i almost cried :(

adam

marissa with the rose petal from bobbys flower

we went back to joshs after the dance and watched mean girls first. marissa and nash snuggled.

after mean girls josh fell asleep for like 20 minutes and i was so upset because i thought he was gonna sleep the rest of the night. we made him get on the couch and then we watched wet hot american summer, city of angels, and some of better off dead. umm yeah...haha :) we finally went to bed at 5 and then woke up at 9

nash was still sleeping but marissa was up

i guess in the middle of the night josh got up and moved to the other couch because we both went to sleep on the other one. of course he was still sleeping much later then the rest of us.

yeah i missed a lot of details but if you want to know just ask. i'm running off of 4 hours of sleep and it is finally catching up with me. i still need to call marissa to work on a project but i think she is probably taking a nap.

Thu, 14 Oct 2004 00:57:05 GMT

HUGE picture update on sunday. i'm going to be busy for the next few days so just wait for that its going to be the best.

thursday - game at forest city then bon fire maybe

friday - practice maybe? football game

saturday - homecoming :) then sleeping over joshs with nash and the riss, which will be awesome.

sunday - picture update most likely and maybe working on a project with the riss.

busy. busy. busy.

thank goodness for mike l.
and now i have to go study :(

Sat, 09 Oct 2004 19:47:17 GMT

I guess i'll update now because marissa keeps bugging me that i never update. nothing really exciting happens so i dont have much to write about. i really need a new icon thats for sure but um lets see.

thursday was a lot of fun. we had a game at western wayne that both JV and var. won so we didnt have practice the next day. after the game we went to pizza hut as a team. our table consisted of riss, mer, dani, and chandell. we laughed so much and got sick from eating tons of bread sticks and pizza.

since we didnt have school yesterday my good friend nash decided to call and wake me up at 10:00, which was so early! i called marissa and told her what the plans were for the day. josh called at like 1:50 and told me i could go over his house so kier picked up marissa and then we went to joshs. she almost ran out of gas so that wasnt good. when we got there we played some tony hawk game for acouple minutes then josh and nash played guitar. we watched 3 ninjas, um boring? i didnt really watch it because it was boring. marissa left at like 5ish so tj brought up to get pizza at bellas. joshs mom ordered hot wing pizza and it looked really gross so i almost gagged. his dad made fun of me for liking mayo so he called me the mayo queen. we kinda just hung around and watched tv till 7ish. oh 3 ninjas part two was on tv so they made me watch it and it was better than the first one. i called kier at 7:30 and told her i wanted to get picked up at 9 so she was mad at me because she wanted to watch the debates. they played more guitar till 8:30 and then we started to watch a night at the roxbury or something like that. they couldnt believe i never saw it before. so that was a great night :) :) and i missed a lot of stuff probably but its not important.

today i woke up at 12ish because josh called to see if i could go to the mall because he couldnt find a tie that matched my dress. i was really confused because i was half asleep and i thought it was nash. i asked my mom if she would bring me to the mall but i guess i'm "grounded" cuz i didnt clean before i went to joshs last night. when she picked me up yesterday i wasnt grounded though ugh! if josh and i dont match it will be her fault. this is the first time ive ever been grounded and i dont even think it should be considered grounded cuz im doing what i do everyday. i cleaned most of the day though so that sucks.

tomorrow my mom said we can go shopping for the rest of my homecoming junk. and i need to get blank shirts from ac moore er' something. monday i have practice at 9 in the morning ugh.

erica got nominated for homecoming! :)
only a week left, i cant wait.

Sun, 03 Oct 2004 22:32:58 GMT

I never update unless i have pictures, and i do have pictures but im too lazy to loud them because they are nothing special. I will load the picture of my homecoming dress though.

i love it and try it on atleast once a day. homecoming is less than 2 weeks away :)

josh and i got in like a fight kinda thing, it wasnt really a fight but everything is good now. meridyth still feels bad about it because she thinks it's her fault even though it isnt!

i lead the most boring life. the only thing i can think of to write about is how my mom is painting the living room and the smell is giving me a really bad headache. aubrey came home yesterday and at 11:00 she drove me to the pump and pantry to get ice cream, which um rocked.

i saw kate yesterday in clarks summit, she was pulling out of burger king. yeah how exciting.

marissa's birthday is in a week :) finally she will turn 15!

Tue, 28 Sep 2004 00:13:38 GMT

i suck at updates because i have no life. um the football game was friday and that was a lot of fun i guess. i broke my purse because i hit robby with it, but thank gosh josh fixed it.

saturday was my VB tournament and lets see i played for about a whole 2 seconds. i woke up at 7 and i didnt even get home till like 8. it was a really freaking long, bad day. i actually ended up crying. josh called to see if i could go over his house but i was stuck at the tournament.

i just read a story aubrey wrote about my papa and i ended up bawling my eyes out. i couldnt even see the words because my eyes were filled with tears. i miss my grandparents so much :(

i got my dress for homecoming yesterday, ill post pictures later. i have pictures from the game i might load too.

Thu, 23 Sep 2004 02:17:04 GMT

ugh stupid livejournal. i just wrote an entry and you decided to be silly and not work. i hate you now.

tomorrow i have study hall which makes me def. stoked

game tomorrow that is at blue ridge maybe

friday is the football game

saturday i have a tournament - ugh.

i might go dress shopping with the riss saturday

about 24 days till homecoming

i still dont know plans but i have time

i wish kate was going to homecoming

computer class is boring without alyssa so hopefully she will be back tomorrow!

keri gets to come back to school monday because she beat up viki. twas very funny. :)

november 26th im going to see taking back sunday with the riss so far.

november 11th i want to go to philly and see the used but i doubt that :(

the used cd comes out tuesday!

i think thats it so far. ill write tomorrow after my game maybe.

SbaLL4e1 3: ok. so..my poor digicam is dead :-( so my dad had to ship it away to get it fixed
SbaLL4e1 3: the funny part is...he forgot to take the memory card out before he sent it
SbaLL4e1 3: so there are about 30 pictures of me on it. and even better a bunch of pictures of you and marissa hahahaha :-)
Taste of Ink 124: o m gosh
Taste of Ink 124: im not laughing
SbaLL4e1 3: hahahahahahaha
--- hopefully they wont look at those pictures. kate ruined my night! ha.

Sun, 19 Sep 2004 16:49:38 GMT

So lets see i've been lacking on picture updates. on tuesday we had school pictures and this is how neil smiled.

and robby wanted to get his picture taken like this but they probably wouldnt let him.

neil is just so awesome.

anyway. i was reading keris journal and i found out that she failed her permit test which totally sucks. :(

yesterday was dani's bday party and now she is 16!! a lot of people couldnt go because of all the flooding. the bridge down the road from me is almost completely gone. i took a walk down and the water was overflowing. my dad said some guy tried to cross the bridge but got stuck in water on the other side. what an idiot. he had to stand on the top of his car and wait to get rescued.

later on in the night at danis party.

mer mer :)

surprise KATE!

i havent seen dana is forever. i was so happy to get to hang out with her.

circle of feet

erica was telling a story i think

nash playing ping pong

marissa made faces for us. so great.

adam tried to balance the ping pong ball and paddle on kiers head.

we all waited while dani started to open her presents which took forever because she is so slow.

Awww. :)

mar and mer

nashers and the riss

Birthday girl

I made Dana pretty

So Meridyth told us the streamers tasted good so i believed her and tried it. this is me gagging.

Nash was scared so he wanted Kate to try it first.

haha

awww

marissa wasnt scared to try it

kiersten tried it and ended up running to the bathroom because it tasted so bad.

little dani aww

Ally wouldnt leave Adam alone and she kept calling him girly boy so after awhile he got mad and hit her in the face with a ball. she chased him.

They looked at the stars.

Steven rode around in the wheel chair. When I took the picture he was can you even see me which was funny.

Ally chased Adam some more.

today im going to the movies with kier and marissa so far. we asked nash and he isnt sure if he can go and i want to ask josh but nash said he isnt home so i dunno yet. i have a crap load of studying to do so i should probably do that now.

later dudes

Sat, 18 Sep 2004 02:26:32 GMT

I guess I should update because I havent in fooooorever.

So this week pretty much dragged on but not all of it was bad. lets see on tuesday we had a game and we actually one. later tuesday night josh asked me to homecoming which was awesome. except not awesome because i cant use that word anymore, nash said i always say it so now my new words are dandy and outstanding. oh tuesday i fell at the game and my knee has a huge bruise on it now which kills. more volleyball stuff happened this week which is boring. today nash asked marissa to homecoming, and id like to think i had a small part with that.

i feel like crap today. i hurt my knee at practice, i have a sore throat, and im really tired. i went to bed at like 6 before and slept till 10 so ill be up all night now. josh said my hair was pretty today haha and he told me its pretty when i straighten my hair so im gonna tomorrow for danis party.

well my bestestest friend danielle turns 16 tomorrow which rocks. i can't wait for her party :) ill take and post tons of pictures.

today in lunch there was a fist fight. chandell and caisee[spelling?] pretty much were wrestling eachother. twas entertaining.

i probably missed a bunch of stuff that happened this week but i dont even care. night dudes.